I Am.

I decorated her nursery. I daydreamed of names. I took all the child rearing classes. I counted down the days until her arrival. I felt her move/hiccup/kick inside of me for months and months. I cried at every ultrasound and heartbeat.


I have loved her with every ounce of my being since that stick on September 13th said "Pregnant." I have been called Mom/Mommy/Mamma by everyone, I gave birth to her and have enjoyed every single day of being with her and taking care of her.
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But it had still not seemed real. I still couldn't grasp it. It felt like a dream.
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Addie is a very happy baby. A very independent baby. I bet if I gave her the opportunity, she would change her diapers herself. She is this happy rolly polly little girl who has completely blessed our lives. I still had trouble believing she was mine.
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Sunday night she had very painful gas/constipation and I was up with her for hours upon hours through the night. Massaging her little belly, bouncing her on my knee, holding her tummy against my warm skin, trying to help relieve her pain. Oh, she was in such pain, I couldn't bear it and I wanted to take it away. She was SO tired, so uncomfortable. She'd fall asleep for a few minutes until the pain would wake her and she squirm and cry out. We stayed up together until the wee hours of the morning. At about 4:30am, after such a long night, she laid her head against my shoulder and looked up at me and stared. Her poor eyes so tired she could barely hold them open. She nestled as close as she could to my body and let out a small sigh/whimper.
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THAT is when I became a mother. I felt it. I believed it. In the last final moments of dark before the sun came up, we had made it through together. I was the only one that could comfort her, the only one that could understand and feel the pain she was going through.
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She needed me. And it was the best feeling in the world.
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The love I have for her cannot be measured and I understand what parents everywhere have been feeling for so long.
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I am a mother. I am her mother.
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And I would do absolutely anything for my daughter.
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As Of Late.

Despite my best efforts of listening to Lionel Richie and gangsta' rap while pregnant, she seems to have Jason's taste of music instead! She also looks a lot like him here!



Before getting family pictures done with Jason's family! We all wore polo shirts and Addie rocked a polo onesie as well! :o)

Happy 1st Father's Day, Jason!

Happy 1st Father's Day to my sweet, sweet husband!! You are the most amazing Dad to our precious baby girl. I didn't think I could love you more but seeing you with her makes me fall in love all over again! :) We appreciate everything you do for our family!! XOXO

Addison gives Jason his first Father's Day present.... a new grill!! Though she like to use it to sunbathe:

This morning Addie and I got up and made Father's Day brunch including, fruits, cheeses, breakfast tacos and mimosas! (mimosa's for us, milk for her of course)

We love you, Daddy!! XOXO

Meeting Of The Adorable Ones.

Addie and Kylie (our adorable niece) got together for their very first meeting and play date on Sunday! They seem very enthused, don't they?

Though they were both conked out for most of the time, we think the little cousins hit it off and will be great buddies! :)

Rub-A-Dub-Dub.

This set of pics I like to call "Addison's First Real Tub Bath," or more appropriately, "My parents are crazy, you can tell I think so by the look on my face."

We are still trying to figure out where this dark skinned, light haired baby girl came from! :o)

Loving life,

Mack & Jason (& Addie)

The Beginnings Of A Pretty Sweet Mohawk.

After The Party It's The After Party.

Our sweet angel princess decided to pull a Robert Downey Jr. last night and wanted to party all.night.long. More coffee, please! I think she learned her lesson as she is suffering from a serious milk hangover this morning....

Sunshine & Rainbows.

Life is so so good. :)

2 Weeks Old!

Addison is 2 weeks old today and holy cow that went fast! We had her 2nd dr appt today and the dr said she looks great and is continuing to gain weight right on schedule!

Seems like we have been on the go every day and I guess we have! Monday we visited Gigi and Uncle Jerry and of course had to take Addie on her first trip to Bud's BBQ.

Then had Kaci over for fajitas, she brought cobbler and I had my first post delivery glass of champagne! Jason's dad came back for another visit and we've gone to CVS for diapers and Subway for sandwiches and Panera for breakfast and Addison is definitely getting very used to her carseat which is great as her mom likes to be on the go!

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She is doing great and I have no idea what we did to deserve such a sweet, content baby! She is sleeping 3-4 hour stretches at night which is amazing at her age. Breastfed babies are usually up every 2 hours! She is only fussy when she is hungry or needs a diaper change and spends most of her awake time completely content hanging out doing whatever we are doing or sitting in her swing and staring at all the new interesting things around her. :)

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Yesterday we had the photographers out for her newborn photo shoot and I am D.Y.I.N.G. for them to send us teasers! It was so nice to just sit back with Jason while they did their thing and admire our sweet little daughter and how beautiful and amazing she really is. I've noticed sometimes I get caught up in breastfeeding and pumping and changing diapers and whatever-needs-to-be-done-next that I need to just stop and enjoy every second of this because it will go by so very fast! The laundry can wait, the dishes can wait, returning phone calls can wait and YES, even blogging can wait so I can just be with her and listen to her soft breathing when she sleeps and bless her tiny sneezes and tickle her monkey toes.

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She won't be like this for long. :)